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Wo mulakat fir yaad aai.....

Khidki se bahar ek cream building aur uske piche ek flyover. Kabhi koi riksha aaram se guzarta hua aur kabhi koi car ya truck tezi se nikalta hua, itni raftaar se ki aas paas ke mahool mein sukun se baithe panchi bhi apni jagah choor kar ud jate aur fir thodi der baad aakar fir wahi baith jate... aur kabhi koi cycle wala jo itne aaram se nikalta hai ki shayad us se takrane wali hawa bhi ye andaza lagaye ki hmm shyad koi hai jo guzar raha hai..
Kitna fark hai in sabhi mein. Aur baki bache paidal wale jo sirf bich mein hi chal sakte hai warna shayad wo fir kabhi chalne layak hi na rahe.

Kabhi kabhi to mein is nazare mein kho hi jati hu.  Subha ka mosam kalka kohra aur hilte ped aur wo kahi dur chalta madham dhundla dikhta sa rasta....Issme khone ki wajah yahi nahi balki isse to mein bachpan se mahir hu. Apne pairo pe chal na pane aur khel na pane ka yehi ek tod tha mere pass. Shanti se bas apni chokhat par baithna aura ate jate logo lo niharna hi mera favraite game tha aur shayad yahi mujhe yaha iss office mein bin mange hi mil raha tha.....

Na jane kyo jab bhi nazar waha jati hai usse wapas apni desk tak lana thoda mushkil sa ho jata hai. Meri lalchai se ankhe waha kya dhundhti hai shayad wo samne khuli wadiyo ki tarha ki aazadi par ye chahat utni hi khokhli hoti hai jitna samne dikhne wale nazaro ko band sheshe ke cabin se mehsus kar pana..

Abhi is udhed bun mein kabhi samne niharti aur kabhi anpi desk par hone ka dikhawa karti mein key board ko hanth lagati tab tak Arvind aa gaye subha ki chai ke sath aur humesha ki tarha muskurate hue chehre ke sath kaha "GOOD MORNING MAM" meine bhi unke jawab mein muskura kar unka jawab diya aur thanx ke sath wo chai ka cup rakh kar bahar chale gaye.

Chai to abhi garam hai kyo na tab tak sir ko aaj ka status bata deti hu aur ye soch kar sir ka intercom number 24 dial kar diya. Phone nahi utha matlab Sir aaye nahi hai abhi to unke mobile par try karna hai…
Aur phone uthate hi “Ha bolo Priti…?”
Jawab mein "Hello, Good Morning Sir"
Aur Phir Sir ke jawab mein humesha ki tarha shant aur shthirta ke sath "Good morning Priti, ha bolo ?"
"Sir, Aapko abhi kitna waqt lagne wala hai office aane mein?"
"Bus yahi koi 5 mint.."
"OK Sir..."
“Kuch important hai..?”
“Nahi Sir just Casual, Aap aa jaiye then we’ll discuss”
“OK”
“OK Sir”
Aur fir phone hang aise karte hai jaise agar ek dusre ka ek aur shabd sun liya to shayad hum dono hi aur kuch sunne layak na rahe... Khair iss conversation ke baad ye to saaf ho hi gaya tha ki sir ko aane mein abhi 15 se 20 mint lagne wale hai aur mein apni ye chai samne dekh kar aaram se pi sakti hu....

Chai ka cup kaise khali hota hai ye process mein kabhi observe hi nahi kar paati, humesha aisa hi lagta hai ki Ary ! abhi to suru kiya tha abhi khatam.... :(

Khair is par matam manane ke liye abhi to waqt ki kami hai mere pass. I have to check all the mails, appointment dairy, payment register, bank details & lot's more...

In sabhi kaam ko suru karne ke baad waqt aise guzarta hai ki jab nazar uthti hai to sham ho hi chuki hoti hai aur lunch aise ka aisa hi rakha rehta hai.
Jab bhookh ne thoda sataya to ye mehsus hua ki lunch na sahi ek chai ho jaye aur fir humne arvind ji ko intercom se yaad farmaya aur mera call dekhkar wo samajh hi gaye thy ki jarurat kya hai.. Aur phone uuthate hi bole ki laya madam bas 5 mints aur mera humesha ki tarha jawab tha ok boss.

Chai aane tak kyo na mein desk thoda samet lu, taki chai thoda sukun se pi jaye tabhi Sachin ji ka call aa gaya... laga ab to sone pe suhaga ho gaya chai ke sath Sachin not bad.... phone uthaya aur thaki si awaz mein hello kaha waha se revert kafi shant tha aur thoda romantic bhi "Hi, kaisi ho..?"
Sochne ki baat ye thi ki Sachin ji duniya ke pachde mein kaha fas gaye. Kon kaisa hai isse inhe kya wasta...?
Khair meine jawab diya  “As usual nothing special...”
Fir kuch aisi batein suru hui jo insaan chain—suku mein hi karna pasand karta hai. Ek to office ka kaam uppar se bhookh aur chai bhi thandi ho rahi hai ye saari tension mujhe Sachin ki bato mein concentrate karne hi nahi de rahi thi....

Meine kaha ki abhi mein baat nahi kar sakti I’ll talk to you later and Hang the call. Phir se call aai meine pick kiya then I said ki koi aur baat hai to kaho warna I’ll talk to u later please abhi baat nahi kar sakti. He again continue the same topic. Ye aur koi karta to shayad mein call hang na karti par sachin ki call to ab hang hona deserve karti hai….

Yahi nahi meine iske baad bhi topic change karne ke 2 muke diye par unhone kasam khai thi ki mein aur koi topic nahi cheduga baat hogi to issi pe warna nahi… OK then fine now I am not picking the call just disconnecting it..

Yahi nahi shayad ek aur wajah thi sachin ki bato ka response na kar pane ki  jabse meine suna hai ki Lalit (Sachin’s Lil Bro, not so lil he is eng) was saying to Udita ki "Priti sakal se hi badi chalu lagti hai"   aur jo shayad sahi bhi tha. Shayad issiliye mere in law’s mujh par bharosa nahi kar pate thy ki manoj mujhe jaan se marne tak par utaru thy. Sab ko bas yahi lagta tha ki mein jhoot bol rahi hu, Shayad mein apni koi jiz manwana chahti hu. Ab unhe kon samjhaye ki jis manoj ke paas mein apna astitwa chor kar gai hu use mujhe kuch nahi chahiye tha siwaye izzat aur pyaar ke.

Jo bhi matlab raha ho Lalit ka positive ya negative mein definatly hurt thi jiska zikra mein Sachin se to bilkul nahi karna chahti thi and isliye Sachin ki koi bhi baat mujhe us topic ko bhulane mein nahi balki apne baare mein kahe us ajeeb si line ko yaad karne mein madat kar rahe thy.... Us Duraan Sachin ki batein mujhe used feel karwa rahi thi… Meri problem to mujhe khud ko nahi pata par ha ye pata hai ki ye baat lalit ne udita ke siwa chahe jisse kahi hoti mujhe shayad tab koi fark nahi padta… Abhi jo situation mere mind mein ubhar kar aa rahi thi wo ye thi ki Lalit sachin & Udita are talking with each other and sahin holds my hand and all are laughing on me…. Mujhse ye bardaas ho hi nahi raha tha.

UDITA sirf ek aisa naam hai mere liye jiska apna astitwa nahi hai jo sirf wahi karti hai jo use Sachin kehte hai isliye uska mere kiye bura sochna ya karna mujhe taklif deta hai. Kyo ki indirectly uske kahe shab mujhe sachin ke hi lagte thy. Mein Udita se sirf ek baar hi mili thi aur jisse meine pehli baar baat tab kit hi jab ki jab mujhe ye maloom huaa ki mein Sachin se baat kati hu islie Udita ko bura laga hai. Wo bechari ro rahi thiaur mujhe kafi bura bala bhi keh rahi thi bina ye jane ki mein kis tarha ki insaan hu... Tab meine ye socha ki mein use baat karungi aur ye samjhaungi ki abhi 2 din nahi hue mujhe use baat karte hue aur ye sab ilzaam jo wo mujhpar laga rahi hai mein us sabhi ke layak hi nahi hu… Matlab Sachin aur mein… Is this a joke of the day… ?

In our conversation most of the time she says that Sachin is not a relaible person,  she did every thing for him and now he is ignoring her with the help of me.  I said Sachin is not a big deal for me aur tumhe problem hai to jab kaho mein usse baat karn band kar dungi no issues... Mere pass aise logo ki kami nahi hai jo apne kisi purpose se mujhse friendship karte hai so Sachin ko bhi unhi mein se ek maan kar I can do that….. Waise bhi ye ladke kabhi kisi ke hote nahi hai. I am extremely sorry ki tumhe meri wajah se problem hui…. And with the appropriate regards we end that conversation.

Sab thik tha, tabhi Sachin ka call aaya and i ask about Udita he said wo Duniya ki sabse worst bandi hai, uski wajah se unhone apni life mein kai important Friends khoye hai.. Bla bla bla
I was confused, who is right UDITA OR SACHIN...?

Well ye to clear tha ki she is in love with Sachin and he is refusing and with the help of dirty words he is trying to maintain distance with her mentally because itni elaborate buraiya bhi wahi kar sakta hai jo bande ko soul se janta ho... Bonding to thi...

Ek keh rahi hai “don't talk” dusra keh raha hai “plz talk i don't wanna lose one more expected good friend...”.

Ab baat sunne sunane ki nahi thi i decide ki mein wo karungi jo mujhe thik lagega... i will talk and slowly i'll get out of it.. tab tak Sachin shayad mujhe mere case mein kuch madat bhi kar de...

From very first day i swear to my parents that i never tried to seprate Udita even from our conversations also... i just try to tell him the importance of caring & loving friends.

Sachin is giving exam of Jurisdiction and Udita is well settled Supervisor in some very reputed School in Hissar. Yes i mean i can't even stand in front of both of them. In Sudh desi hindi meine abhi apni graduation bhi complete nahi ki hai to mujhe meri aukat pata thi ki mein kaha stand karti hu... Both are from very reputed families also... 

Pata nahi kaha kya panga hua... Udita ko laga ki i m falling for Sachin... Total Rubish Sachin ke liye us waqt tak to bas yahi tha ki Manoj ke dayre se bahar aane ke baad jab mein khud ko dusro ke hanth ki katputli hi manti thi tab Sachin was the one who told me the meaning of my own words. Even he was the only one person who can understand my silence also. Mera Sachin se ye rista zarurat ka sa ban gaya tha jaha mein apne shabdo ki mohtaz na rahu. But ye saari cheese uth kar mere daman par daag lagaye wo mujhe kisi kimat par gawara nahi tha fir chahe wo kimat Sachin hi kyo na ho…. Mein Kabhi nahi dikhati ki mein kis taklif mein hu par agar koi cheez jaruri hai to bas karna hai chahe uski kimat meri sanse hi kyo na ho… Khud ko tourcher karne mein meine PHD ki hai… Har wo kaam karna hi hai jisse mujhe taklif hone ka anuman bhi ho….. Isliye apne kisi bhi faisle se pehle mein ye sochne ki zehmat nahi uthati ki iska asar mujh par kya hoga. Aisa hi ek faisla meine hum tino ke bich ki complications ko lekar liya.. I have planned ki hum sabhi milenge aur saari complications clear kareinge. Apni lachari ki numaish mein khud hi karungi fir chahe wo chahe wo mujhe kitna hi chota kyo na sabit kare..... 

Bachpan se mere papa ne mujhe normal logo ke bich hi rakha aur ye confidences build kiya ki mein kuch bhi kar sakti hu… Pair se jyada mere mental strength matter karta hai… Par papa ki taumar ki is tapasya ko Manoj ne sirf 1 saal mein tabah kar diya tha… Yaha tak ki mein normal logo ke face karne se bhi dar lagta tha…  Kehne ko to Manoj ne sirf sach hi kaha tha mujhse humesha ki tu aisi hai, waisi hai. Ye nahi kar sakti wo nahi kar sakti mere layak nahi hai. Par sach sunne ki himmat sab mein nahi hoti aur afsos ki mujh mein bhi nahi thi. Khud ki itni kamiya dekh kar khud se mera viswas to kab ka uth chala tha. Par mujhe nahi pata tha ki aage jo bhi mere sath hone wala hai wo mujhe manoj ke sath bitaye hue waqt ka aaina dikha dega…..

Sachin, Udita & Mein , kuch ajeeb nahi hoga, inn dono ke bich sirf mera hona. So meine Raj ko bhi invite kiya..
Sachin mujhse bohot nice rehte hai to i said Raj ki wo mujhse jyada behas nahi kare aur thoda special treat kare. Taki Udita ko comfortable lage aur jo bhi galat fehmiya ho dur rahe at least mujhe lekar.... Ye to wahi situation thi ki aa baiil mujhe maar.... Sach to ye hai ki mein Udita ko ye dikhana chahti thi ki jis par tum itna khafa ho wo iss kabhil bhi nahi ki apne aap apne pairo par bina sahare khadi ho sake to kisi ki zindagi mein kaha koi jagah bana pane ka tab hai mujh mein.  Sachin ke dosto ki list kuch aisi hai jaise sidhiyo par khade mohro ne pair mein tell laga rakha ho roz Sachin ek jhatka denge jo tik gaya wo us din ki list mein sumaar rahega baaki kal phir aake khade rehna ek aur jhatke ke liye… Mujhe to yaad bhi nahi ki aisa koi din ho jaha meine us list mein apna naam bhi darj karwaya ho…... Udita wo thi jo Sachin ke har jhatke ko Sachin ka hi girebaan pakad kar jhelti thi aur aasuo ne usi ko bhigoti bhi thi…..Too mein khud bhi us ladki ko dekhna chahti thi jisne Sachin ki life mein wo jagah apne sabr se kamai thi jise dekh mujhe had se jyada jalan hoti thi...

Sirf mein hi jimmedaar thi us dardnaak mulakaat ki...

Kuch bhi thik nahi tha us din, Udita ne keh diya tha ki mein hissar mein hu aur nahi aa sakti.. Ab mera aur Raj ka waha jana bekar tha par fir bhi meine Raj ko manaya aur Raj maan bhi gaya... Sachin ne bhi khoob bhaw kaya but at last agreed to come and said ki Udita aayegi mein bhulaunga usse... i was surprised ki wo jab hissar mein hai to kaise aayegi.. Par aaye to bohot achha aur na aaye to bhi thik. Ab mein to iss topic par aur kuch nahi kar sakti thi...
On Sunday Rajjj mujhe time par pick karne aaya par mujhe tabhi pata chala ki meri ek class bohot important hai South camus mein because ab sir next 5 classes nahi aayege to wo further studies ke liye kuch notes provide karne wale thy... Meine Raj ko bataya was agreed aur Sachin ko msg Drop kiya. Even Raj ne waha bahar mera waite bhi kiya... mere aane ke baad Raj ne car ko plane bana kar hawa mein udana chalu kar diya... I must appreciate his driving skills aur South Campus se Model town mujhe less than 20 mints mein pohochaya... in between meine socha ki hum ab pohochne wale hai mein Sachin ko bata deti hu... when i called him wo to kissi aur hi track par tha.... he disconnecting my call.. meine dobara try kiya he picked and said "Go to hell" I said Raj ki lagta hai janab ki satak gai hai, tum hi call karo aaj ka din to waist huaaa just because of me...Sorry Raj....

Raj ne Sachin ko call kiya and dono ne ek dusre ko top codes mein milne ke liye agree kiya and meeting was settled in  McD. Mein Sachin ke aise behavior ke liye khasa naraj thi... i have decided ki mein usse baat nahi karungi... (Aap bhi yahi soch rahe hai na ki wo nazaj kyo thy..... Ary kyoki unhe laga tha ki mein aur Raj classes ke bahane jhoot bol kar ek sath time spend kar rahe hai aur hum isliye us destination par pohochne mein late ho gaye.... Haad hai SACHIN….

Aisa hota to mein kya Sachin se darti hu jo jhoot bolungi....)

Khair Hum dono waha pohoche aur 4 mint baad Sachin bhi aa gaye.. Raj aur Sachin Properly mile par maine aur Sachin ne formal hi kiya without eye contact... ye sirf mera attitute nahi tha well Sachin ka bhi same reaction tha... Waise bhi Sachin se baat na karne ka mujhe ek bohot achha bahana mila tha.......

Then Shocking for me... Udita enters in the premises and i was to happy... hum bohot achhe se mile... aise jaise ek dusre ko bohot ache se jante hai...

Fir usne Sachin aur Raj se bate ki.... Jitni burai Sachin ne Udita ki, ki thi usmein ek bhi nahi nazar aa rahi thi mujhe... Bas ek hi problem thi usmein ki wo Sachin ko khud se bhi jyada janti aur pyaar karti thi....

Sachin ka mujhse baat na karna aur Raj ka mujhse over baat karna (As i instructed) mere liye uncomforrtable hota ja raha tha... Ek B.Tech, Dusra Judge & Tisri Lecturer aisa lag raha tha ki mein in tino ke bich invisible hu..  you know Mr. India types....
Thodi si batein hui, Humne Pizza khaya aur Raj Car lane chala gaya.. Mujhse Udita aur Sachin Ke sath bethna bohot bura lag raha tha to I also quit from their and mein bahar ja kar khadi ho gai... Raj aaya aur mein car mein baith gai, Bethte hi meine dekha ki Sachin aur Udita bhi dusri taraf se baith hi rahe thy...

Car mein discussions suru hui, pata nahi kya topic tha par Sachin Udita par chilla raha tha... Jaisa ki meine decide kiya tha ki mein unke bich nahi bolungi par mujhse raha nahi gaya and in the mid conversation i raised my voice and said "Raj mujhe lagta hai ki hum apne dosto se baat kar rahe hai to it should be polite."

Jis tarha ka gussa meine Sachin ka phone par dekha tha laga ki Sachin ab Udita ko chor kar meri aisi taisi karne wale hai but god grase ki wo shant ho gaye aur us mahol mein agle 1 mint koi kuch bhi nahi keh raha tha.... Fir pure raste mujhe kisi bhi baat mein involve hone ki jarurat hi nahi padi wo dono aapas mein magan thy aur Raj drive karne mein vyast tha. Hala ki usne ye clear kar diya tha ki Jo bhi hai aaj clear ho jana chahiye tum dono ke bich hum wapas ikatha nahi ho sakte hai...
Mere pass us doran bahar dekhne ke siwa aur koi kaam nahi tha, fir luckily Aaditya (FB friend) ka call aaya and first time i just picked it in just a single bell... aur wo dono chup ho gaye...

Hum Sachin ke room par pohoche waha Sachin aur Raj apni jagah par baith gaye aur Udita bhi mein last mein pohochi to ek baar unsab ko settale dekh ek call karne ke bahane aa kar bahar khadi ho gai.... Mere aane pe Raj bhi bahar aaya aur Udita bhi aa gai.. Hum just Udita ko ye samjhane ki koshish kar rahe thy ki har riste se pehle hota hai aapka self respect... Iss relationship mein kaha hai wo....?

Sachin is clearly saying ki wo Udita ka freind hi bane rehna chata hai to thik hai na... say ok and move ahead.... apni lecture bazi mein mein ek bohot wahiyaat example Udita ko de baithi....

I saide ki " Udita tumse jyada Sachin ko koi nahi samajh sakta.... aur naa hi koi jheel sakta hai ye sabar sirf aur sirf tumme hai...
Try and understand wo clearly keh raha hai hi wo tumhare sath puri zindagi rehna chahta hai but as a freind only... uske samne aar ya paar ke 2 options mat rakho wo frustrate ho raha hai and us frustration ko tum par tumahri bejati kar ke nikalta hai ki tum uske baare mein galat socho aur sirf saadi wala mind set delete kar do jab tum dosti bhi khatam kar chali jati ho to wo fir tumhe contact karta hai... In simple words He only wants to be your friend....."

Aur is ramayan mein  Ek example ki "Udita mere hisab se as a female sabse worst profession hota hai Prostitution Kyoki waha respect nahi hoti but uski ek khas baat ye hai ki usse bhi wo ladies kuch hasil karti hai aur wo hai paisa..... Matalab har riste mein kuch lena ya dena hota hai chahe wo freind ho biwi ho ya bhai behan ho...agar wo tumhare riste mein sirf ek clouse par itni batmizi par utar aaya hai to jaane do yaar is riste ko sirf friends raho wo zindagi bhar tumhara khayal rakhega…" So plz jaha tumhari izzat nahi us topic ko bhi kyo chedna....."

Mera matalb sirf saadi ke topic ko Udita ki dictionary se bahar nikalna tha.....
Ye hoti hai anpado ki nisaani... Kar di na wahiyaat baat ye ehsaas bohot baad mein hua mujhe....

Udita ne isse bohot galat le liya tha... She thinks ki i m telling her Prostitute.  No i swear i din't mean it..

Well us waqt to na Udita ne ye jataya ki usse meri ye baat buri lagi hai aur na hi mein aisa kuch samajh paai thi, mere chup hote hi Raj ne bhi same cheez Udita koi aur kai lafzo ke sahare batana suru kiya. Baat just thoda aage badhi hi thi tabhi Sachin room se aaya aur kaha ki tum sabko mujhse problem hai to mein hi chala jata hu tum sab room mein ja kar baat karo... aur wo waha se niche chala gaya hum tino room mein gaye aur baith gaye... Raj ne jab Udita ko samjh liya to humne decide kiya ki Raj Sachin ko call karke bulaye... Janab aaye aur Raj ke sath aise baith gaye jaise...

Kab ke bichde hum aaj kaha aa ke mile... ;D

Udita ne aur meine un dono ki ek-ek picture click ki aur Raj aur Sachin apni bato mein lage thy aur mein aur Udita apni.....

Thodi der baad Raj ne kaha ki sab apni apni life ki ek-ek problem batayeinge aur baki thin us par apne views rakhenge.... Sab se pehle Raj jaisa ki expected hi tha Kalpana - Kalpana aur Kalpana iske siwa koi aur problem pichle kuch salo se Raj ki life mein hai hi nahi.... hum sab ke accordingly yahi suggestion tha ki tumhe interest dikhana band kar dena chahiye... Tumne jo karana tha kar diya ab uski baari hai apne riste ko aage le jane ki.... Jaisa ki humesha hota hai Raj ne aise sir hilaya jaise ab is baat se aage aur piche wo kuch aur sochega hi nahi par sab ko kahi na kahi ye pata hi tha ki ye suggestions 24 hours bhi janab ke zehan mein nahi tik payenge...fir bhi we did the formality direct from heart. As per the game rule mein Raj ke right mein thi to Raj offered me to share any problem of my life.

Us waqt jis tarha us sabse dur feel kar rahi thi mein khud ko usse jyada bada issue mujhe aur kuch sujh nahi raha tha... So meine ishara kiya aur Raj se kehne ki koshish ki ki pehle in dono ko bolne do... then Raj ne Sachin ko kaha aur Sachin ne apne multitalented hone ki prob samne rakhi aur kaha “I want to be the Direactore but doing law, not clearing Juridiction exam from last 3 4 times. I have to continue studies or move forward towards my pasion. Apna sawal khatam karte hi wo meri taraf dekhne laga aur jaisa ki mein subha se hi kar rahi thi meine fir wahi kiya nazre chura ke Raj ki oor dekhne lagi aur Raj ne kaha bol... tab meine kaha ki "Jo tumhara passion hai uski bhi kuch requirement hai aur tum Sachin se pehle ek bete aur bhai bhi to ho. So kuch social responsibilities bhi hai to first of all concentrate in your jurisdiction exam and please us exam ke question papperko papper nahi  balki priti ki taraha treat karna jaise ki samne wale to kuch bhi nahi aata duniya mein bas ab ek tum hi hope bache ho to explain that and tumhe apni puri jaan laga kar usee elabarate karna hai.... So please once more, try from bottom of your heart aur ha exam ke waqt fizul ke topics par concentrate karne ki bajaye exam par dhyan dena chahiye na ki kisi bhi friend sehui behas to jyada importance do kyoki tumhe pehle hi sab aata hai. Fir jab tum exam clear kar loge aur sattele ho jaoge to financial support se tum apne ambition ko aur siddat se pura kar sakoge.  Raj & Udita was agreed with me and said ki ha bhai sahi hai aur tumhe ek aur attempt karna hi chahiye...
Ab baari aai Udita ki mein aur Raj jante thy ki uska topic kya hoga... Sachin & Udita.... Alphabetically S, T then U aata hai but yaha to bas SU hi exists kar raha tha bas ab tak sirf mein hi Mr. INDIA thi ab to Raj bhi MISS INDIA ban chuka tha.. Well well well Un dono ko koi sudhar nahi sakta because dono hi apne point of veiw se already bohot suljhe hue thy.

Sachin, Udita naam ke drugs se addicted tha par over doss nahi lena chahta tha aur Udita sirf ungli tham kar thak chuki thi ab to usse Sachin ki baho mein hak se jhulna tha... Wo galat bhi to nahi thi... Wo isse deserve karti hai, Sachin jaisi aafat ko itne saalo se sambhalna koi mazak ki baat nahi hai. Ary bhai apne personal experiance se keh rahi hu.. Ha wo handsome hai iska sara fayda wo apni ankho par chasma laga kar pura karta hai...Mein janti hu jo dusro ko izzat dete hai wo apni zara bhi bejati bardast nahi kar pate... i am a live example of it.... Well wo dono ek dusre ki kamiya itni sidat se nikal rahe thy ki Raj aur mein ek dusre ki tarf dekhne lage aur Raj ne mere kaan mein kaha ki ye sirf dost hai to log Miya-Biwi kinhe kehte hai.......  Wo uske jobs ke forms bharwata hai to wo uske liye bin kahe fav books lati hai... Wow kash mein Sachin se na mili hoti to ye ek ache wale loving couples lagte mujhe , abhi bhi lag rahe hai par thodi taklif si ho rahi hai....

Halaki kabhi bhi Sachin ne mujhe iss baat ka ehsaas hone nahi diya tha ki mein usse alag hu kam padhi likhi hu ya by leg abnormal hu.... par Insaan ki asli AUKAT to mehfil, mein aankhi jati hai, akele mein to har shaksh badshah hota hai... Matlab ki akele mein jab hum baat karte thy to Sachin mujhje bohhot spceial feel karwate thy par jab bhi baat kisi aur ke saath hone ki hoti thi to pata nahi kyo mujhe aisa feel hota tha jaise Sachin ye jatana chahte hai ki meri lachari unki mere dost bane rehne ki mazburi hai isliye meine unhe kai aise muke diye ki wo na chahe to contact na kare.. Mein apni taraf se unhe disturb bhi nahi karti thi ye jante hue bhi ki Sachin social nahi hai wo khud se interaction karna kam hi pasand karte hai fir bhi...
Mein iss baat ka andaza bhi wahi bethe baithe laga rahi thi ki jab in dono ke bich is kadar ki strong bounding hone ke baad bhi Sachin ne Udita ki had paar buraiya ki thi mujhse aur ha sirf ki thi suni nahi thi mein ye samajh chuki thi ki agar un buraiyo ko mein bhi hawa du to Sachin khijh jate thy aur accept na karu aur tar-vitark ho to wo ruth jate thy to option to bas ek hi tha sirf suno aur kuch nahi. Isse ek baat saaf thi ki Priti beta agar tumse janab khafa hue to agla pichla sabhi hisabo ka postmortem hone wala tha..... But i was ready because i know ki ye chah kar bhi Manoj se jyada rude nahi ho sakte thy. I am Habitual......

Jaisa ki iss betuki mulakat ke baad hua bhi... Mujhe issi ka dar tha..

Khair un dono ki nok-jhok iss kadar badhi ki Udita sone lagi aur mein aur Raj apni nind se jag kar usse chup karwane ki koshish bhi karte usse pehle hi Udita ne rote rote kaha yahi bejati karwane ke liye bulaya tha mujhe yaha aur wo uth kar apne bag utha kar chal di. Raj aur Sachin ek dusre ko usse bus stop tak chor kar aane ke liye keh rahe thy and tabhi meine kaha... Sachin had hoti hai tum iss waqt bhi behas kar rahe ho... Jao aur usse bus stand tak properly drop karo.. Plz aur kamal ki baat hai ki Janab uth gaye shayad wo issi ka waite kar rahe thy.... Mera Sachin ko bhejne ka intension ye nahi tha ki mein Raj ke sath samaye bitau... To bhi frank mein Raj ke sath nahi rehna chahti thi, Wo fir se agar Kalpan ka topic chedta to mein man hi man usse galiya hi deti... par us waqt to bas itna hua ki Sachin ko Udita ke piche paglo ki tarha bhagta dekh i was just speechless.... Blank and i just putit my head mon my knees and start crying.. Plz don't ask me why.... 

I have not observed ki un kuch minto mein us room mein kya kya hua jab meine mehsus kiya ki kisi ne mere kandhe pe hanth rakha hai i thought ki ye Sachin hai and meine jaldi se sar uthaya but wo Raj tha aur wo mujhe consol karte hue ek hug dene ki sirf koshish mein hi tha tabhi darwaza baza. i was shock. Raj jhat se utha aur gate ki kadi kholi...  Mein shock jarur thi par ye aisa kuch nahi tha jise mein Sachin par show karu aur wo dono fir tamasha kare.. Meine apne expression chupane ke liye wapas se sir niche kar liya aur apne aasu pochne hi lagi thi when Sachin came to me... I thought ki wo mujhse kahega ki kya hua, i am here with u... But usne bade pyaar se mere kandhe pe hanth rakh kar kaha kya hua... Process adhura reh gaya mein fir se chala jau.. Sorry meine disturb kiya....

Raj Sachin ke aate hi bahar ja chuka tha ye keh kar ki tum dono baat karo mein abhi aaya...

Mere pass ab Sachin se kehne ke liye kuch nahi tha... Meine Sachin ki ankho mein dekha aur wo muskura rahe thy... Mein waha se uth kar khadi ho gayi aur gate par aa gai tab tak samne se Raj aaya aur mujhe rukne ke liye kaha i saide Raj samne se hat jaiye warna mein aapko dhakka de dungi aur tum jante ho mein abhi aisa kar sakti hu... He saide haa meri kaki chal Raj aur Sachin bhi niche aaye aur aake car mein aage baithe mein piche baith gayi hum jaa rahe thy aur Sachin ke mathe par bite dinbhar ke vywhar ki ek sikan bhi nahi thi.... thodi dur jakar Kripal Aasram ke pass Sachin car se utar gaye aur Raj ne mujhe aage aane ka isara kiya aur mein nikal kar aa gai. Sachin mujhe fir aise dekh rahe thy jaise unhe mujhse iss par bhi shikayat hai ki mein ab aage baithne kyo ja rahi hu par ye to etiquette hota hai ki agar gadi aapka koi frein ya family member chala raha ho to aap aage hi baithe issmein mujhe in nazro se dekhne ki kya jarurat thi par mein ye soch bhi kaise rahi thi ki abhi Sachin kisi etiquette naam ki cheez ke ird-gird bhi ja sakege...wo to sirf ek aise ristey ke hone par naRajgi jatane ka satak lagana chahte thy jo sach mein kabhi kahi exist hi nahi karta.... wo sab to Raj mere kehne par kar rahe thy.... Hum kafi aage nikal aaye meri nazre abhi bhi car ke outer glasses par hi thi jab tak wo dikh rahe thy tab bhi aur jab wo dikhna band ho gaye tab bhi.... Raj ne kaafi aage aakar gadi rok kar us ek mint ke liye mujhse bohot dil se maafi bhi mangi par ,mein unhe maaf karti bhi to kaise wo baat to mere zehan se kab ki Sachin ki nigaho ne saaf kar di...

meine ye ilzaam bohot dino tak sune ki mein aur raaz pehle se hi relationship mein hai, we had a physical relationship also. Par mein kisse naRaj hu ye galat fehmi to meine hi khadi ki chali thi kisi ke man se shak hatane apne hi character par hazaro ilzaam le ke apne ghar wapas aa chuki thi mein. Raste meun Raj ne kya kaha ? kya soch kar usne drive karna wapas suru kiya i don't know ? mein mentally Raj ke sath nahi thi. Kab usne mujhe ? Mother Dairy pohoch diya pata hi nahi chala... Fir waha se meine Raj ko aage ka rasta bata kar riksha le liya...

Mein ghar aa chuki thi.... Puja tution gai thi aur Rahul papa ke sath car servicing ke liye gaya tha mummy aur amma chhat par thy dhoop mee... Mein andar ja kar shoes utarkar gate band kar ke takiye ke niche sar daba kar jitna ro sakti thi ro liye.... Karib aadhe ghante baad jab ansuoo ka stock khatam ho gaya tab papa ki baat yaad aai ki isski anko mein bhawan g ne universal pipe line fit kar rakhi hai jab ji chahe iska suru ho jati hai....after all huaa kya tha ...? wahi to jo mein chahti thi. Ha mein itna nahi involve hona chahti thi par jo hua achha hi hua... Ab to Udita ne mujhe dekh liya hai ki meri aukat usse compete karne ki to kya uske samne khade hone ki bhi nahi hai. Ab cheeze waisi hi hai mere Udita aur Sachin ke bich jaisi mein chahti thi even meri ummed se kuch jyada hi acha result hai.... Kam se kam ab ye dono mil kar aur kuch nahi to meri buraiya hi kareinge... Pata nahi ye mein kisko  samjha rahi thi... Par jo bhi tha mujhe pata tha ki jyada din ka nahi hai...

Mujhe ab bhi yaad hai kaise us mulakat ka asar mahino tak Raj ne jhela tha us bechare par Sachin, Udita yaha tak ki meine bhi indirectly nazaj hokar Raspiest hone ka ilzaam laga dala tha... Raj mujhse 8 saal ki dosti mein pehli baar naRaj hua tha aur wo bhi in sabdo ke sath "Yaar mein manta hu mujhe darwaza nahi band karna chahye tha, meri galti hai jo mein tujhe console karne ki koshish karne laga. Par yaar ab tak Sachin ur Udita ko hi dure padte hai ab tujhe bhi suru ho gaye... Sab ke sab mujhe rapist  sabit karne par tule ho... Kyo...?"

Isske baad to jaise mujhe kisi ne tamacha sa maar diya ho... Sab saaf ho gaya tha ki Sachin basically humesha Udita aur mujhe protect kar sahi sabit karne ke liye kisi ek ko villain banana jaruri hai jo ki unfortunately Raj banta hai.....not in this case but pehle bhi meine suna hai ki Raj ne Udita ko propose kiya bla bla bla.... waise ye hota kitna aasan hai ki kisi ko bhi aisi situation mein daal do jaha se wo easily bahar naa aa paye aur jab wo bahar aaye to ilzamo ki bochaar kar do... Kaheir jo bhi tha meine jo galti ki thi usse ab baat Raj ke character tak aa pohochi hai. Ab mujhe Sachin ko Phase karna hi hoga but pehle isse manana hoga.... Aur phir 11 calles ke baad 12vi call jake mahaRaj ne pick ki I said SORRY :( sabse pehle fir Promiss kiya ki kuch bhi ho hum apni freind ship mein kabhi bhi kisi bhi problem mein Chup nahi rahenge, Ladege, Blem kareinge aur jhagdege par yu hi phone nahi kateinge... 

Phir Sachin ji ko call kiya aur kaha ki "Jis cheez ko pith ke piche ji-jaan laga kar birbal ki khichdi ki tarha pakane ki koshish mein hai aap to wo choro aur suno I love Rajendra Aggarwal, I can leave the whole world but not Raj kabhi nahi, umhe rehna hai raho jana hai jao..... Bye...."

Na jane kisne kaha hai ki kisi ko ache se jannana bhi aapko shatir bana deta hai, Sachin ji ki ek aadat hai wo ilzaam tab tak lagate hai jab tak aap usse mane nahi. Jab aap usse maan le aur koi stupid sa reason de de to un ka gussa dudh ke uffan ki tarha niche aa jata hai.... to lo aa gaye janab niche.... par unhone Raj ke daman ko daag lagana abhi tak nahi chora... Shayad Raj bura hi ho par wo jo bhi hai mera best friend hai jispar mein ankhe mund kar ye viswas karti hu ki wo na meri burai kabhi mere pith piche karega aur na sun kar uska bhagidaar banega. Wo kabhi mera bura kar hi nahi sakta... Aur mein Priti Mishra iss viswas ko aazmane nahi wali isliye nahi ki viswas kam hai balki isliye ki uske sahi sabit hone ke baad mein aur viswas laungi kaha se uspar.

Aur ha Dheere-Dheere khulte-khulte ye batein bhi khuli ki, meine Udita ko prostitute kaha tha. How dare i am....? and mein aur raaj Sachin aur Udita ke maze lene gaye thy waha, Iske baad mein ek cheez puchna bhul gai thi ki kya padhe likhe log apna dimag sirf padhai ke liye hi bacha kar rakhte hai... Yu hi muh utha kar kuch bhi bol do... Janwar aur insaan mein ek cheez ka antar hai aur wo hai dimag, Muh kholne se pehle iske istemaal par INDIA mein to tax nahi hi lagta baki deso ka bata nahi...

Well us din ke baad ilzamo ki to aisi buchhar hui thi ki kai lamho mein to mein khud ko koste hue bhi nahi thakti thi par ha iss wakya ne ek shaksh ka rutba is kadar badha diya tha ki uski taap mujhe aaj bhi jala deti hai. Kuch batein hazam karne wali hoti hai aur kuch ugalne wali ye to aisi dastan thi jo nigalli to muot pakki ugal li to jina dubhar.... Kheir mein bhi behti ganga mein hanth dhoye… Ye ilzaam zad diya sachin pe ki tumne agar mujhe dost mana hota to kam se kam ye sochte ki bandi ne kitne efforts kiye yaha tak aane mein sab ko manane mein yaha tak ki meine tumhe bhi manaya… par nahi kisi stupite se illusion ki wajah se tumne mujhe puri din hi tak nahi kaha… Jo himmat udita ke jane ke baad aai wo raj le duba…. Aur dusra sangin ilzam tha ki Sab ki problem janne ki jarurat thi par meri life mein kaha koi problem jo tumhe lage ki sunna bhi chahiye.. Haaa Raj ne pucha tha ek baar par mein raj ke room mein nahi tumhare room par thi, tumse milne aai thi ye tumhari responsibility thi ki tum mujhse puchte…. Par tumhe to zarurat mehsus hi nahi hui hogi na…. (Halaki mujhe ache se yaad tha ki udita ke baad mera number aane dene ki nobat udita ne aane nahi di thi).

Oh in bato mein to ye bhi yaad nahi raha ki in yaado mein Sachin ki na jane kitni calles aa gait hi jo mein bas katti gai….Aaj to Priti beta teri khair nahi, but jo hoga acha hi hoga.. Shayad ab ye yaadein mujhe wapas aaj raat sone na de par ek baat to pakki hai ki in lamho ko kagaz par utaar kar mein achha hi mehsus karungi... Thanks Sachin tum yaha nahi ho par tumne jo mujhe ye sugat di hai ye mujhe kabhi beizzat nahi karegi.... 

Lo Beizzati ka naam liya aur janab ka Msg bhi aa gay “You Bitch, Attantion Seekar………” aur bhi kuch hoga par aage padhne ki himmat nahi hai mujhmein abhi…. Sabse pehle to Msg delete kiya aur fir dekha ki kitni calles thi janab ki…. 16 Missed Called fir to bitch kafi chota word hai. The Great SACHIN PAWAR ka call disconnect karne wali sakhsiyat to koi badi hi hogi na…. Khair ye ek word kafi hai mujhe ab kabhi Sachin se baat na karne dene ke liye…. Aur agar kabhi wajah ki baat aai to ye hai ki “Tum jo ghato aurat ki izzat aur hak ke liye prawachan marte ho tumhe aisa nahi laga ki agar samne wali bandi aisi bato mein abhi comfortable nahi hai to change the topic. 1 nahi 2 nahi 3 bhi nahi 4 baar call pick kar tumhari aur koi baat kehne ka muka diya meine…par nahi to bas ab aur nahi.  Mein abhi baat karne ki condition mein nahi hu aur ab jab meri marzi hogi mein tabhi baat karungi. Karna hai to karo warna jao..”

Ye gussa sirf kuch lamho ka hi tha, after reaching at home meine unhe call kiya to explain what was happened why i was disturbed but Pawar ji ka purshotwa shayad jag chuka tha, after picking the call he says, "Ab kya hai, chal rakh phone..." After that bohot sare whatsup me msg aaye ki "Kya bhok rahi ho, tere jaisi ke aage piche nahi ghumta mein etc"

Ab to bas itna kehna hai ki
Har gunah ki hoti hai, koi na koi sazaaa,
Gum Likhe jo kismat mein, to ban hi jati wajah..........



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